Nine years ago when I became a Widow, I had two of my girls still living at home. My Sarah was only 17 years old and Jordan was 19 when their Daddy was killed. I remember telling God.......OK God, you choose to take my husband from me, SO NOW, you're going to have to be my husband, you're going to have to be my children's Daddy, you're going to have to be my provider, you're going to have to take care of me and my children.....And that He Did. As I look back on that time, I'm thinking......WOW, I was bold or a fool, to "tell" God what he was going to have to do, but, He knew that I was talking to Him like a desperate woman would, and did he take care of us. When you have no one else that could provide for you the way a husband provides for his family, you have no place else to turn......except to your Father. When my husband was killed I had NO income, I didn't get a penny from the trucking company he was working for, I didn't get a penny from the truck owner that he was driving for and it took 2 years for me to get the insurance money from the drunk drivers insurance. We were living out of state from the rest of my family at the time, so they weren't aware of our situation. Even my earthly daddy told me....."Josephine, what are you and your girls going to do? Y'all are going to be out on the streets." I loved my earthly daddy, he owned a Large 4 bedroom 2 1/2 bath house and he never offered for me and my girls to move in with him. I knew that was God showing me that HE was going to be the Rock that I was going to have to stand on, I know that God was showing me that I was to put my total trust and faith in Him. No earthly person would take care of me like my Heavenly Daddy would. I stayed a widow for 2 years and in that time my girls and I never had to go out and get jobs to provide for ourselves, we were never late on our rent, we never missed a utility payment, we never received food stamps and we never received government assistance. My van broke down, God put it on someones heart to give me a car, our air conditioner broke, someone bought us a new a.c. We had a large garden and would put our produce out on a table in the front yard with a plastic container for customers to put the money in for the produce they would purchase. One day we came home and there was a note on our front door telling us that someone had purchased some tomatoes and they put the money in the ice box we had under the car porch, when my daughter went to get the money, they had left $300.00, That's just a few of the ways that God provided for us. He made ways for us where the human eye could see NO way. I always knew that God was my provider, but as long as my husband was alive, I knew that God would provide for my girls and I through him, But, when my husband was killed and I had no one else to depend on........I HAD to put ALL of my trust and faith in HIM and HIM alone. Now I am happily remarried to the man that God himself choose to put in my life. Once again, I now have a smile on my face, laughter back in my soul and Love back in my heart. God has truly Blessed this sinner. What a mighty God I serve. Remember, you are Loved by a Mighty Heavenly Daddy.
